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I spent all day yesterday searching for jobs.
Meanwhile I applied for some freelance stuff.
When I woke up this morning I had an email from some guy in the UK who is a legal practitioner and he appears to be loaded.
He s looking for a photographer for his only daughters wedding (in the states) for....next weekend.
Travel arrangements will be made for me, as well as hotel accommodations.
So now Im wondering...do I take the job and make as much money as I possibly can...running the risk of this being a craigslist scam and ending up on the cover of local newspapers...
or forget about it and look for more legit jobs.
"And i am very much set to be compensation you greatly"
Being greatly compensated is a tempting thought for this poor art major college kid looking to relocate within the next few months.
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| In the past three hours... |
[04 Sep 2009|08:54am] |
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My day began with an awkward session of learning how to 'log roll' a boy in kinseology and provide emergancy cpr.
It was touch and go but he pulled through.
I thought it was funny when I blew in his ear while he was checking my breathing.
He, on the other hand, did not.
Im spending the weekend in good company in a city I liked when I visited it once with a certain Carlos Lamborn.
Philadelphia means a trip to a haunted penetentary, kyles infamous meatsauce, a first date, and a reunion with the craziest girl I'm sure to ever meet/live with.
Things are good.
Fall is coming.
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| Today so far. |
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I woke up today to an envelope on my car from a 'secret admirer."
Filled with summer cd's, pictures, a stolen flower and a note urging me to move on.
I smiled hard as I read it.
I could use more moments like that.
Today is better already in light of it.
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| hopless breathless baby |
[10 Jul 2009|09:19pm] |
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A favorite memory of mine is this...
laying in a huge scratchy bed in Venice.
I had spent the entire day wandering the island in the rain with a bello I easily could have loved if given the chance.
We boarded a night train last minute and packed our bags after a mess of wine and when I got to Venice all of my things were wrapped in cellophane. Still not entirely sure the drunken logic behind that one.
Anyways...on the train I could not get the song...Midnight Train to Georgia out of my head.
I laid my head on his lap and hummed it in my head until I fell asleep.
I woke up in a strange place, excited, exhausted and ready to see something new.
We held hands through the fog of this ghost world, barely speaking a word.
We arrived in thick fog early in the morning.
The boats were not even running yet so we had to wait around a bit.
5 am rolled around and we boarded, with some difficulty, a boat which was crowded to the edges with people going off to work.
We had no map, other than a picture of a map he had taken with his camera, of his computer screen...in order to find our hostel.
It was an adorable little thing.
Though we couldnt check in until noon.
The day was spent, needless to say, sitting on the steps of churches and theaters drinking brandy and laughing until we cried. Soaked to the bone by the rain and huddling close for the sake of warmth.
We took turns paying for cafe...as you had to pay to sit...
We played games to stay awake and wandered around taking pictures and silently soaking it in.
We were finally granted permission into our tiny and oh so adorable room
where we quickly changed into pj's and i fell asleep before he could find his way into the room.
we decided to sleep for two hours and then go venture out for some dinner.
in my delirious and giddy state i attempted to teach him the midnight train to georgia song that had been stuck in my head since our train left Rome.
We were laying in this huge bed in a tiny room, belting out the first few lines of Midnight train to Georgia, as loud as your voices would allow.
That night was great as was the next day and the island of Murano,
upon waking the next morning we realized we may not have been alone while yelling Gladys Knight in the middle of the night.
Our balcony was attached to the surrounding balconies, all of which had their windows wide open.
If ever there is a place, other than Rome I vowe to return to...it is Venice.
Though Im not sure any trip to that place will measure up to this first experience.
I think of these things because I have been thinking a lot lately about the people we choose to spend our time with.
Also a lot about those people which we allow ourselves to love, even though it is obviously, glaringly, impossible to ignore...wrong for us.
We all need someone to hold onto. We all need companionship and we desire to be loved and needed. BUT at what cost?
Oftentimes in my life my inability to confront....anyone....has been taken advantage of.
This looks like another story to add to the list.
Its funny to me. Not something to get angry about...those days have long passed.
Its just funny.
And sad.
Not for me...never for me.
To each his own.
I have so much more to say.
But we wouldnt want anything tragic to happen.
Or dramatic.
Classic pushover and big hearted mess.
Call it classy if you like.
I think its just a little bit of decency.
Im kind of a sucker for Taylor Swift lately.
Id like to blame it on the little girls at work.
But thats only half true.
Theres a line in a song that is written for high school hearts,
but i like it.
something about...
sitting on a park bench (with some boy) and she thinks...hey isnt this easy.
I like the sound of that.
Like the thought of finding someone new that I feel that way about.
It sure as hell is going to take some time.
Im in this one for the long haul. hah
in the meantime...
its friends only and feeling sorry for myself while watching stupid taylor swift videos on youtube!
haha.
eileen eill be here any minute to save the day!
xoxo
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| Things that make me feel better |
[08 Jul 2009|08:11pm] |
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-Eileen Q. Viloria
-My Job
-When little kids SCREAM my name in excitement when I enter a room. (Even if they think my name is Dora)
-The fact that I have something that resembles a future
-My family is normal. Like really good and normal. Honest people with honest livings and good kids/friends.
-I have traveled and studied things and places most people can only dream of.
-I have a blurry faith that gets me through a lot of shit. Even if I dont entirely understand it...I know I ve got something pulling me through.
-I have been in love a few times-and its been amazing. It's over now...really really over now, but I know what it feels like and I have faith it will find me again.
-Im pretty amazing at finding simple things more astonishing than most.
-I dont need anything fancy or expensive to make me happy...like...nothing.
-Mckenzie Grace, Peyton, Tyler and Wesley.
-My life is simple, and my dreams are big, growing bigger (though more practical with age)
-I have a wishy washy, semi decent education. But an education nonetheless
...I've just been feeling shitty lately.
sometimes i need to remind myself what im doing here.
...this weekend should help.
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First thing you wash in the shower?
mmm...i guess i like to mix it up. haha.
but the first song i always sing is jaymay-grey or blue.
What color is your favorite hoodie?
I dont think i own a single hoodie.
Who was the last person you kissed?
Peyton.
Do you plan outfits?
Yeah.
Lately its been sundresses and summery skirts.
How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Sort of in between sad and complacent.
Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
My dad collects things.
Im at his computer and there is a little red truck in front of me.
Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
AH! I remember every dream i ever have and theyre always insane.
Last night I had a dream a friends old girlfriend gave birth to a strange looking baby on the balcony of my apartment.
While sitting in plastic deck chairs.
Effortlessly I might add.
Did you meet anybody new today?
No,
But i did go back to the flea market with hopes of seeing the boy of my pathetic dream life again.
No luck.
What are you craving right now?
My Roma family.
Big time.
Do you floss?
When I remember.
What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Lauren Harris.
Her mom used to make cabbage salads for my birthday because she knew they were my favorite.
Are you emotional?
Yes. But! I feel like I've learned to control it.
Ask ex boyfriends and they might disagree.
But its a new breakthrough haha.
Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Hm. Probably. I do a lot of stupid shit to waste time.
Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick it. biting popsicles and ice cream hurts too much these days.
Do you like your hair?
Its getting long. So...sort of.
Do you like yourself?
Usually
Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Heck yeah.
Not sure what we'd talk about. But I'd eat with pretty much anyone famous.
Except famously evil people. haha.
What are you listening to right now?
Um....Beyonce Single ladies.
In my defense! My roma roomie hannah listened to this all the time and got me hooked.
Are your parents strict?
Not really. Theyre fun and funny.
Would you go sky diving?
In a heart beat.
Do you like cottage cheese?
Absoloutly no.
Have you ever met a celebrity?
Yes!!
Carlton from fresh prince, at the galleria mall.
Sean Astin for some reason.
And I ALMOST shook the hand of Bill Clinton.
I think thats it.
Do you rent movies often?
Not usually.
I like the Redbox things though.
Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Im in my dads room...no. haha
Have you made a prank phone call?
Not since like elementary school sleepovers.
Ever been on a train?
Yes! Italy pretty much covered every form of transportation for me.
Brown or white eggs?
Everything comes back to italy....
I will go with brown now. just because im sentimental.
Do you have a cell-phone?
No.
Do you use chap stick?
Nope i usually just lose them.
Do you own a gun?
Yikes, no.
Can you use chop sticks?
Sometimes. usually i just shovel food into my face with a fork, because im a hog.
Who are you going to be with tonight?
My roommate probably.
and then jeff
Are you too forgiving?
Probably.
Ever been in love?
Twice.
Not counting the love at first sight at the record stand.
What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Working at a preschool.
Ironically enough-the same thing as me!
Just a few cities away.
Ever have cream puffs?
mmmmhm!
Last time you cried?
I'll say about a week.
What was the last question you asked?
Does Mielniks take checks?
Favorite time of the year?
IFall.
Do you have any tattoos?
nope
Are you sarcastic?
Im not sure. Probably not.
Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
If that is the one where ashton kuthcer loses his fingernails...yes.
otherwise.
no.
Ever walked into a wall?
Certainly.
Favorite color?
Green.
Have you ever slapped someone?
Not really.
Is your hair curly?
Only when it rains.
or when i get out of the shower/pool
What was the last CD you bought?
Jason Mraz?
Do looks matter?
I think so.
Not for me the way they matter to a lot of people though.
Could you ever forgive a cheater?
No.
Is your phone bill sky high?
No phone.
Do you like your life right now?
Well....it has its moments.
I feel like it prepping me for good things to come.
Its pretty shitty at the moment, but I have some solid moments.
Do you sleep with the TV on?
No. I fall asleep to The Stranger, side A every night.
Can you handle the truth?
I've been told I cant. But i like to believe i can.
Do you have good vision?
Nope. not terrible though.
Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I dislike a few mean ladies from the pre school.
Dissapointed in a few?
Daily.
How often do you talk on the phone?
Never, but i spoke to kyle kauffman today.
hes at officer candidates school in quantico.
made me miss him!!
The last person you held hands with?
Babies from the preschool on our awful hot walks.
What are you wearing?
a t shirt and a white skirt.
What is your favorite animal?
lizards?
Where was your default picture taken at?
AW! years and years ago when Krispy Kreme first opened and I spent all of my time there.
This picture was actually taken the night before i had to go to my first saturday dhall.
Can you hula hoop?
Ive got long limbs.
it makes most things i do look awkward. haha
so yes, i can...but i shouldnt.
Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes.
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| Boatloads of shame |
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I do a lot of stupid shit.
I am known for fucking up and regretting things i do.
Well this weekend was nothing new.
I drink too much because usually I think it will make things better
or i don't think about it at all.
Saturday would have been three years for the old boy and I and I spent it at a wedding.
Which would have been fine for a normal person.
Not an emotionally unstable insane person like myself.
I have been doing really really well on my own.
And feel like such a dumbass for calling him and looking like an idiot.
i do that.
a lot.
(the look like an idiot part)
I've just been really hard on myself lately and I really hate that I did that.
I never used to drink at all.
And now my first solid case of broken heart and I am drinking like a fish and looking like a fool.
That s not an excuse of any sort. and I'm feeling totally humbled by the entire experience.
I just need to reevaluate. Remember the kind of person i actually am.
Lay off the beer and all other forms of alcohol.
That is not me.
It never used to be at least and I am getting far too comfortable with that person.
I'm going to see the Avett Brothers next week.
I'm looking forward to that.
Also I am a week away from finishing this batch of summer courses and then I get a break for a few days before I start the next batch.
I want to go to Penns Cave this summer
I think it might be a place for children but I'm not sure...if it is I still want to go. Maybe I'll just take Kenzie as a cover.
The closer I get the more excited I become about graduating.
It's a really good feeling knowing I have nothing holding me back.
I look forward to the excitement of some new life I have not planned out yet.
Next year at this time I might be in the same town with the same friends or I could be in a new state with new people and new experiences.
Who knows.
I drove around Scotch Valley for a while last night and ate toasted cheese sandwiches on my parents porch with an old friend.
It feels really really good to laugh with someone new.
The type of laugh that hurts your guts.
We watched what appeared to be a full moon over the lake and I ve decided its time we invest in a deer spotting light.
Small town summertime favorites
1.deer spotting
2.ice cream at the dip
3.running through the sprinkler/playing in the sandbox with niece and nephew
4.laying in my parents front yard to watch the stars
5. boat rides at canoe creek
6.drive in movies
im just writing/wasting time until class begins.
maybe a walk around the pond is in order.
lovely day.
work til 5.
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-12 credits
-One gallery opening
-6 months until I graduate!
I have decided when I graduate I will be applying for any job I find that interests me and suits me.
I am not going to restrict myself to a certain geographical location...because let's face it-there isn't too much holding me here anymore.
I've been daydreaming like crazy.
Just picking up and going somewhere new is exactly what I need.
I have seen that I adapt really easily and very well to brand new situations and I cannot wait to actually start a real life.
The west entices me lately.
ha but who knows!
My dad and I spent the day in Pittsburgh yesterday.
We made it a point to stop at every yard sale along the way.
And a huge flea market where I bullshitted with an old guy about records for 30 minutes.
I purchased a few and we were on our way.
Warhol Museum and Mattress Factory.
It was a nice day all around.
I may have found a bike.
The tires are shot and its dusty as hell but its only 25$ and its exactly what I've been looking for.
Currently trying to find out how much new tires to an ancient bike might cost me.
I plan to move into the apartment this week.
Not a moment too soon.
Summer is here.
Picnic season is in full bloom.
This week looks like a lot of sunshine, canoeing, picnicing, studying and kidd-os.
Welcome back sweet summer xoxo.
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| Since the airplane ride |
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A lot of things have changed since ive been home.
i have never once had a reason to care about my weight.
though italy put a grinding halt to my cookies, tacos, french fry diet.
I have really been surprising myself with the mass amount of will power I've had.
Anyone that knows me knows I am not the best at maintaining healthy eating for more than one dinner.
I have been running each night at the campus and then running back to my summer home.
An apt I share with a friend.
I spent my 23rd birthday babysitting.
As expected, coming home to no Jacob has been a slight challenge.
I know that we are not what the other needs and no amount of pain or trying will ever fix that.
We were for some time,
I'm just trying to take it for what it was...
a happy time that is over now-but taught me some things.
Most of all I miss the friend I had in him.
Our stupid sense of humor matched up more often than not.
That's what I wish I could get back.
But knowing full well that may never happen...I am trying to keep busy.
And forge ahead...distract myself from the obvious I guess.
( Birthday Goals... )
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Don't say it's over
Cause that's the worst news I could hear I swear that I will
Do my best to be here just the way you like it
Even though its hard to hide
Push my feelings all aside
I will rearrange my plans and change for you
If I could go back
That's the first thing I would do I swear that I would
Do my best to folow through
Come up with a master plan
A homerun hit, a winning stand
A gaurantee and not a promise
That I'll never let your love slip from my hands
If it's the beaches
If it's the beaches' sands you want
Then you will have them
If it's the mountains' bending rivers
Then you will have them
If it's the wish to run away
Then I will grant it
Take whatever you think of
While I go gas up the truck
Pack the old love letters up
We will read them when we forget why we left here
Last night the earthquaked and I have been nervous ever since.
I think the darkroom might have a ghost.
Peyton crawls.
Manda is pregnant.
The Avett brothers have been a vice lately.
Ive been drawing a lot.
I wish I drew more.
I spend a lot of my time waiting for the 490 bus.
I ll be home at the end of this month.
and this will all surely feel like a distant dream.
I've been writing in journals for the past ten years
about how ive been dreaming of springtime in italy.
it just always had such a nice ring to it.
its pretty much what ive been imagining since jr high.
somedays i forget where i am.
but then ill pass the Colosseum on my ride home and quickly remember where i ve been living.
im going to go wait in the dark for that damn 490 bus.
hoping the earth keeps still tonight.
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| Operation Ada |
[03 Apr 2009|02:06pm] |
today the maid saw me in my birthday suit.
i feel like this is karma for my messiness.
hhh.
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i had a really good day.
i woke up early and took photos in rome
then i went to class
followed by a long night in the studio
but every monday is a long night
and i have good people here in my life so its okay
and my work here is fun.
i came home to everyone asleep
so i called ryan
and i said lets be friends
and he said
thats hard
and i said thats what she said
ciao.
and he came down
and we talked alot
about home
and then i got really bummed
with the memory of this house
with the secret wall
where we someday planned to hide christmas gifts
and i realized i am more in love than i ever anticipated.
and probably the least likely to be with that love now....
harsh realizations via roma.
shit...
bonna notte.
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I got mail in the B box today.
Good day.
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I spent my afternoon laying in the park
singing
and drawing
It felt nice to have space
As much as I usually enjoy the company of those around me we never EVER have time to ourselves
so I got a little rush of excitement as I layed in the grass and just relaxed, unapologetically.
My homework assignment for sketchbook class was to be one with nature and draw
While the rest of my friends stress over paper writing
So needless to say it was a nice morning
Less than a month left in this country.
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| Weird day in Rome. |
[28 Mar 2009|06:55pm] |
Last night was my friend Rachels Birthday.
We decided to go out for fancy gelato.
Most everyone was dressing up but I had spent my day reading and laying on the couch watching always sunny
so i didnt dress up.
Turns out most of us didnt end up in dresses anyways.
We went to this fancy ice cream place from the Audrey Heptburn movie-Roman Holiday.
I spent 8 euro on a banana split but it was welll worth it.
We came home and Ryan and I decided to go trash checking.
We found a really huge Ironman poster in Italian,
which we promplty stole.
Then the night was filled with remaining episodes of the first season of always sunny.
I woke up this morning around 11:00.
I took my time getting ready and realized I need to go to the flim and the film stores ALL close at weird times on Saturdays.
Most at 12.
I found one that closed at 1:00 and rushed out of the shower and threw on clothes and flew down the elevator to the street.
As I was leaving the apartment building there was a man running full spring from the building
he kept looking behind him as if he were running from something it was really strange but I just kept walking because i didnt see anything behind us.
Then there was a man standing at the gate staring at something in the sky.
Cipro, the metro stop closest to home, is only about a 5 minute walk from the apartment.
On the way there I saw about 10-15 other people staring at something in the sky.
At this point I was a little freaked out
Even if i wanted to I couldnt say much more to them then...
what time is it?
Where do you live?
my name is laura.
I would like a salami sandwich.
So i got to the metro only to find that it was closed.
Ive never seen it closed.
Now Im not only angry because i have to
Eh.
Library is closing
Despite my earlier thoughts the world has not come to an end..
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Tuesdays are my long days.
Its 5 00 in Rome and I just had a fun filled day of Photo, Italian and printmaking.
Two critiques later and Im ready to go home!
We've all gotten to the point where we have had more than our fill of pasta
and panini
So tonight we're going to try to get creative with the dinner.
Creative will more than likely mean toasted cheese and tomato soup.
(Everyone has also hit the wall where reminders of home are apprciated- and everyones mom seems to have overdone that meal during childhood)
I learned silkscreening in Printmaking class
All day saturday I slaved away in the printmaking studio and Im anticipating the addiction to occur.
Im pretty excited about this handy new skill of mine.
Last night was one of my floormates birthdays so we decided to make him a birthday cake.
It turns out the directions were read incorrectly and instead of adding 4 tbs of milk (!?) we added 4 cups.
Woops.
Riley is a domestic individual and somehow created crepes out of our goo.
So we all ate crepes shaped like various odd animals and nutella...while the birthday boy went to the bar.
Woops again.
Its really crazy that I'll be moving back soon.
This whole thing is going by way faster than anticpated.
I have a place to live this summer for like 250 dollars all summer.
The only catch...es are I will be living with a boy.
we ll only have one key
and I will be sleeping on an airmatress.
I dont think we have a television
But i know we have a record player, a coffee pot and a microwave.
Also a balcony.
I really feel like that will be a good transition home for me.
The weather here is getting really nice.
Although today is freezing and sligthly more grey than normal.
Since I've come to Italy I've traveled to Todi, Umbria, Tuscania, Venice, Naples and Torino.
I would really enjoy a weekend in Dublin and we are going to Amsterdam over Easter break.
Despite popular belief I will be going to Amsterdam for the Van Gogh museum.
Nothing else.
Well...of course to travel and yada yada but thats it.
I've been seeing the Pope every Sunday and traveling to the beach-Ostia Lido-frequently.
Im from Pennsylvania...so anytime I live in a place where I can reach the beach in 45 minutes by train...I will take full advantage!
I got my first postcard yesterday!
It was a thrill to have something from home.
It s 524 in Rome.
Im going to go take a nap on the red chairs and wait for my dinnermates to be finished with class.
Maybe pictures will be posted someday.
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I have been in roma for nearly a month and have talk to next to no one.
so far i have seen some awesome shit and met some really cool, relaxed people.
my computer is slowly dying on me-hence the no photos in circulation.
ive been drinking a lot of wine and staying up until the birds begin to chirp and the sun rises over the balcony of my tiny apartment.
i feel suddenly at ease.
and understood.
ive been eating fresh, real food for the first time since i was a kid and my mom cooked my meals.
im losing massive amounts of weight.
and buying pants in europe is a challenge.
i got broken up with over skype.
three+ beautiful years put to rest over an intrenet phone.
i guess that puts things into perspective.
i have this amazing friend from home who made me a mixed cd for every week we'd be apart.
this week is beautiful.
and ive been listening to it a lot lately.
slow dance week. haha.
anyways.
i went to naples last weekend and had a blast.
wandered around pompeii all day.
danced in an italian bar, where the italians loved us and did all the stupid dances we did.
i spent my evening dancing crazy stupid dances with a boy that looked exactly like bob dylan.
he even had a tiny harmonica around his neck.
at one point we got the dj to play a cake cover of i will survive.
this was one of the highlights of my italian life thus far.
i broke my baby toe again.
same one as last year.
and i was dancing in this italian bar with flip flops on-which is insaaaane to them!
and they all kept coming up and asking me if i was crazy.
all i could say was broken toe
and then still agreed i must be insane.
for dancing in flip flops until 6am with a broken toe
i cant begin to explain the simple beauties i have seen since ive been here.
wandering into the center of a piazza full of people playing drums and singing and dancing at 4 am.
just looking up and catching a glimpse of the stars and fully realizing where i was.
amazing.
so....tonight my roomie banana is cooking us all dinner and the wine is overflowing
my dad will be here in a few weeks and i am nearly in tears over excitment of him visiting me.
i cannot wait for him to see how easily and quickly i can adapt to a new place.
it feels good to be able to show this off.
i miss mckenzie grace and peyton o neail more than words can explain.
little tipsy.
whole lot of happy.
ciao for now
XOXO laura
ti amo
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| New Years Eve |
[31 Dec 2008|02:31am] |
2008 was filled with a lot of working,
playing with babies,
a new nephew,
a growing niece,
loving a good guy,
flying kites,
long drives,
good talks,
baseball games,
motorcycle rides,
painting,
drawing,
photos,
movies,
late nights with friends,
family dinners,
putting things off til the last minute,
coffee,
all nighters in pine...
2009...will begin with a flight across the ocean
beyond that I cannot be sure
and I have never been more thrilled for a new year to begin
When I return I'll be a day away from my birthday
and a week away from the birth of yet another nephew
weeks from a beautiful three year anniversary
Good things are on the horizon.
I forgot to mention I will finally be graduating college!
4.5 years later....
Happy New Year!
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